| Starting Over |
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| 08:24pm 12/10/2008 |
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I have spent the better part of my day purging and refilling my iPod and it is strangely satisfying. Also, even though my internet has a giant red X on it I am still finding myself connected! Woot! It is so nice to have that internet I have been paying for again. |
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| Amazing |
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| 09:16pm 25/07/2008 |
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mood:  happy
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So, I haven't dated much in the last 3 years and it all goes back to a guy who really broke my heart into tiny bits. Like a miracle today, when I was feeling crappy and worthless for unrelated reasons, I bumped into him and his new gf. It was like looking in a mirror, only her hair was much shorter than mine. I knew he had this big hang up that I had long hair and he preferred girls with short hair, but could it really be that he dumped me because of my hair? Hahahahaha. I feel so much better. It was one of those things that had always puzzled me, but now it is completely clear. I am sure that there are personality differences too, but we even have almost identical glasses and our hair is colored the same. It was insane. I have never felt so relationally vindicated. |
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| Here's The Deal |
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| 11:00pm 13/06/2008 |
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mood:  tired
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I wore my shoes with no socks today and now my feet smell. I found this old journal from the summer after I graduated from HS and people had written all of this fantastic stuff about me. I had to laugh because it has probably been about 8 years since I spoke to most of them. I guess I am not so fantastic anymore huh? Hahahaha. |
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| Back for now |
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| 01:15pm 13/06/2008 |
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music: God Given by Nine Inch Nails
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Once a year is apparently about what I am up to posting lately. I resolve to be better about using this livejournal thing like I was a million years ago when I started it. I am going to visit my family this weekend and my little goddaughter turns two, so it should be fun and there will be cake so who can argue with that!! |
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| It's a miracle |
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| 09:08pm 07/08/2007 |
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Despite having one of the longest days in some time, I was very surprised to have one of the best year end reviews of the last 3 years today. I am very hopeful that I can make this job work and that I can buy another year or so until I get things figured out. Now I am in bed, watching Frasier and drinking a delicious diet orange Sunkist and getting ready to drift off early. |
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| Blah |
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| 03:58pm 06/08/2007 |
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Sick, sick, sick...sick of being sick. I have only left my bed to eat a bite out of a cheese sandwich and have a drink of water since 8am! I really need to move around, but something tells me I will find myself right back here tomorrow morning! Perhaps I will venture out to get my mail or something. Also, there are all of these hellicoptors flying over my house because I live by the 35W bridge and it makes it hard to hear with all the media vultures flying around. At least if it was rescue workers I could get over it. |
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| New Leaf |
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| 01:21am 09/01/2007 |
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I need to get back into the swing of writing in this little journal thingie again. I am totally into 2007 and I have remembered to write it every day!! Today is my dad's birthday and I got him these awesome books and a video so he can learn how to play the Conga that my mom got him for Christmas. I can't wait until he has his first "concert."
Last night I got totally freaked out because I though that there was a person breaking into our house! I came out of my bedroom armed with hairspray to fend off the evil intruder, but it was just the heat vents. Next time I will be prepared. |
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| Rambling |
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| 06:42pm 16/10/2006 |
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This morning it was dark and rainy and all I could think about is why I am so down all of the time lately. Can we ever really forgive ourselves for the things we did or did not do in our past? The loves we didn’t fight for and the friends we have lost touch with? No matter what I dump in this hole it just never seems to fill up and I am helpless. I am afraid that the world will change around me and I will be too caught up in the past to notice. I miss living without an end in sight, unafraid of the unknown and optimistic to its opportunity. |
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| Ugh |
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| 06:38pm 12/09/2006 |
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I have been so lazy lately and I am not sure what my problem is. Aside from always feeling pretty much like shit I have added a layer of sloth to it to give it some dimension. Perhaps it is residual from the Purple Jesus consumption on Friday night, or the shock of the Vikings win last night, but I just feel like staying completely still. In less depressing notes, the purple Jesus caused someone to get their ass shaved at our gathering. I still crack up every time I think of it! |
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| Long Time |
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| 10:41am 12/07/2006 |
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I have been a really bad updater the last few months, but really nothing impressive has happened. I moved 2 months ago and it has been great, but uneventful besides the fact that I painted my room the brightest shade of green they had that didn’t cause people to have seizures when they looked at it. I have been looking for new jobs, so hopefully I will have some excitement in the “I quit my horrible job” department in the next month. Other than that I just get up go to work, work out and go home. I have taken to napping from about 7:30-10 and then getting up and going to bed lately. I feel as though I waste all my waking hours these days. |
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| 11:15am 22/06/2006 |
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Ohhh...KMFDM at First Ave on 10/2!!!
Eric...you must come to visit and we must go.....KMFDM just isn't fun without you!!! |
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| Long time.... |
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| 01:56pm 12/06/2006 |
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....no update!
There really hasn't been much to report. I feel like I have been sick for about 2 months now and despite my bi-weekly doctor appointments they can't seem to give me any clear diagnosis. My symptoms keep mounting, so I am slightly afraid of them never being able to figure anything out. Since my symptoms are frequent and physical they can't say it is in my head, but they can't figure out what is wrong with my body either. Maybe I should start drinking again? It seems to me that when I was drinking I barely ever got anything but the 3-2 flu!! |
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| Hmmmmm |
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| 09:33pm 03/05/2006 |
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So, I am calmly watching the finale of One Tree Hill that I taped (it was fucking awesome) and one of those "That's Watsons" commericals about pool tables and hot tubs comes on. I looked up only to find that someone has gone and knocked up the Watson's girl!! I wonder if it is that old guy that used to be in the commercials with her that seemed pretty pervy? I'd like to see her get into a tanning bed in a bikini with that gut! |
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| I have a problem |
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| 12:52pm 02/05/2006 |
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The never ending process of list making. I am a champion list maker...I list everything in my life so that I have a constant running timeline. Some people might call that anal, but I can't stop myself from doing it. I just got done tracking the rest of the week and diving up all I need to accomplish as well as what TV shows I want to watch and what I'd like to cook for dinner as well as a few outfit choices for my weekend graduation parties. Sometimes when I am making a list I write down things I have already done so that I can track them and cross them off. I have decided that tonight when I go to Target I am going to buy a notebook in which I will keep all future lists for my viewing enjoyment. Over time I will measure whether or not my list making has kept me on track or whether I have just wasted a serious amount of time making lists.
In any event..my multi-tasking has allowed me to have extra time to make some cookies on Wednesday evening........ |
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| 08:53pm 30/04/2006 |
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How can it be Sunday night again?
Monday is approaching........ |
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| April 20th |
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| 02:52pm 20/04/2006 |
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Claim: '420' entered drug parlance as a term signifying the time to light up a joint.
Status: True.
Origins: Odd
terms sneak into our language every now and then, and this is one of the oddest. Everyone who considers himself in the know about the drug subculture has heard that '420' has something to do with illegal drug use, but when you press them, they never seem to know why, or even what the term supposedly signifies.
It's both more and less than people make it out to be. '420' began its sub-rosa linguistic career in 1971 as a bit of slang casually used by a group of high school kids at San Rafael High School in California. '420' (always pronounced "four-twenty," never "four hundred and twenty") came to be an accepted part of the argot within that group of about a dozen pot smokers, beginning as a reminder of the time they planned to meet to light up, 4:20 p.m. Keep in mind this wasn't a general call to all dope smokers everywhere to toke up at twenty past four every day; it was twelve kids who'd made a date to meet near a certain statue. It's thus incorrect to deem that '420' originated as a national or international dope-smoking time, even though the term began as a reference to a particular time of day.
These days '420' is used as a generic way of declaring one likes to use marijuana or just as a term for the substance itself. Its earliest connotation of having to do with the time a certain group of students congregated to smoke wacky tobaccy is unknown to the overwhelming majority of those who now employ the term. Indeed, most instead believe one or more of the many spurious explanations that have since grown up about this much abused short form:
420 is the penal code section for marijuana use in California.
Nope. Section 420 of the California penal code refers to obstructing entry on public land. The penal codes of other states list different entries for 420, but none of them matches anything having to do with marijuana.
However, on 1 January 2004 the Governor of California signed that state's Senate Bill 420 which regulates marijuana used for medical purposes. This bill comes years after the term '420' was associated with marijuana and indeed its number likely was chosen because of the existing pop culture connection. This is the tail wagging the dog, not the other way around.
It's the Los Angeles or New York police radio code for marijuana smoking in progress.
It's not the police radio code for anything, let alone that.
It's the number of chemical compounds in marijuana.
The number of chemical compounds in marijuana is 315, according to the folks at High Times magazine.
April 20 is the date that Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix, or Janis Joplin died.
Though these performers were strongly identified with drug use during their brief lifetimes and the emerging drug culture after their demises, none of them kicked the bucket on April 20. Morrison died on July 3, Hendrix on September 18, and Joplin on October 4.
The 20th of April is the best time to plant marijuana.
There's no one "best time" -- that answer would change from one part of the country to another, or even one country to another.
Albert Hofmann took the first deliberate LSD trip at 4:20 on 19 April 1943.
This was indeed the case — his lab notes back this up. But this wasn't the source of "420," just an oddball coincidence. (For the pedants out there, Hofmann's first LSD trip, which was accidental, took place on 16 April 1943.)
It's the code you send to your drug dealer's pager.
Yeah, right. All drug dealers recognize a '420' page as "Please be waiting on the corner with my baggie of wildwood weed."
When the Grateful Dead toured, they always stayed in Room 420.
Untrue, says Grateful Dead Productions spokesman Dennis McNally.
Spurious etymologies and uncertain definition aside, '420' has slipped into a position of semi-respectability within the English lexicon. Various free-wheeling cities annually celebrate "hemp fests" on April 20. There's a 4:20 record label in California, and a band called 4:20. Atlanta's Sweetwater Brewing Co. sells its 420 Pale Ale in supermarkets and opens its doors to the public at 4:20 p.m. Mondays through Thursdays. New York's 420 Tours sells low-cost travel packages to the Netherlands and Jamaica. Highway 420 Radio broadcasts "music for the chemically enhanced." And in 2001, the forReal.org web site of the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services' Center for Substance Abuse Prevention put out a public service document titled, "It's 4:20 — Do You Know Where Your Teen Is?"
420s are routinely slipped into popular movies and television shows. In Fast Times at Ridgemont High the score of the football game was 42-0. Most of the clocks in Pulp Fiction are set to 4:20 (but not all — when the kid receives the watch it's set at 9:00). And there are many other instances, so keep your eyes peeled.
However, as amusing as it is to tie 420 to pot smoking and hunt for it in popular movies, the number has its dark side. Hitler was born on 20 April 1889, and the massacre of 13 victims at Columbine High School in Colorado took place on 20 April 1999.
Barbara "4 and 20 blackbirds" Mikkelson
Information Credited to Barbara and David P. Mikkelson,/i> |
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| Admissions |
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| 10:07am 17/04/2006 |
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I just realized this morning, as I was making a very long commute, that if I died today I wouldn't have achieved more than a few of my life's dreams. I wonder what I am waiting for and why I am wasting so much time? It's funny how people are surrounded by television and books and movies all depicting people taking risks to follow their dreams, yet people so rarely do. I don't want to be one of those people who looks back at my life and sees nothing but wasted time. |
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| The power of cheese |
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| 03:29pm 13/04/2006 |
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My brother and I are having this long conversation about cheese and he is clearly obsessed with Kraft Singles. He said, and I quote:
"How do they even make those...is it like a giant sheet of cheese that they just cut? I want to get one of those machines!"
After that he entertained me with stories of how his roommate had 4 half gallons of milk in their fridge, the earliest dating back to when they first moved in to their apartment in like September. Last night they opened them all and compared their contents of which he described to me in detail! I may never eat dairy again! |
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| 10:00am 27/03/2006 |
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Yesterday I had the unyielding urge to drive off the road. I am not quite sure what is wrong with me lately, but everything feels so god damn hopeless and I am tired of being down. Maybe I am not doing enough to change it or maybe I internalize everything, but I am seriously unhappy deep down in my red meat. |
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